Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Random Miles Entertaining Tidbits

When asked what he wants for Christmas (a few weeks before) he said "I want a cat.  But Mommy, one that doesn't talk.  And I need a black one."  :-)  Totally random, but I love it.

When we let him open a present on Christmas Eve (a tradition that my Dad started a long time ago when I was little) we chose a couple of DVDs so he could watch them that evening.  His response upon opening it?  (with a sad face) "But why did I not get to open a playing toy?" :-)  He's nothing if not honest.

When we were at Brad's parent's house eating dinner with Ryan & Shera for Christmas, we had Christmas Vacation on tv while we ate.  The scene where Clark is fantasizing about his new pool and the chick from the lingerie counter taking her swim suit off on the diving board came on.  Miles was completely fixated on  the tv.  When we asked him if he thought she was pretty and if that was his girlfriend he started blushing and said "No.  My girlfriend's Nicholas." (which refers to Astrid from How to Train Your Dragon.

Miles loves his Aunt Kitty.  But that is how he knows her.  When we were all passing out gifts at Mom and Dad's house, Mom was having Miles be her elf.  He was delivering the gifts to people.  She said "Ok, take this one to Catherine."  He looked around and said "Who's Catherine?"  :-)  We all had a good laugh.  Then when Mom came to Marty he delivered her gift saying "Marty, Marty, Marty, Marty, Marty, Marty, Marty" and Aunt Bonnie was "Aunt Boney".  He was on a roll.  :-)

Lately he's been saying "Well, that's weird." and "Eeew.  That's nasty." and "What the?"  He's a regular comedian these days.  We laugh more often than not.

He's also very, very sharp.  We read Polar Express once on Christmas Eve (Thanks Aunt Marty!).  He wanted to read it tonight again.  So I said "I don't want to read it.  You read it to me."  So he went page by page telling me what was happening.  I could tell the parts where he zoned out on Christmas Eve because he just kind of made it up.  But he remembered exactly what Santa said and what the conductor said.  He's so smart sometimes it blows me away.  Remembering the words to a story after hearing it once?  Incredible.

I feel sure that God allowed him to live (when he didn't let this last baby live) so that he could do great things.  He has a purpose here.  I don't know that he'll cure cancer, although I wouldn't put it past him.  He's definitely going to be intelligent enough!  But he's going to do something amazing.  He destined for phenomenal things.  I'm just the cheerleader.  :-)

Merry Christmas!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Officially back in the throes of infertility.

I know, I know...I got pregnant on my own in September and we lost the baby a month later.  That was maybe the worst experience I've been through.  But it gave me some hope that MAYBE I was "fixed".

Well, I'm not.

I was just coming off birth control when we got pregnant the last time.  My OB says it can sometimes make your body ovulate when you come off the pill because you haven't released an egg for a while.  Looks like it worked on me...but I'm back to being effed up again.  37 day cycles aren't going to facilitate a pregnancy.

So I'm starting clomid next week.  I hate clomid and it hates me...so please pray it works!  If it doesn't we're going onto Femara instead of clomid.  Less side effects, which Brad and my coworkers will love.

I just want another baby.  I want Miles to have a sibling.  I have the sweetest little guy in the world and I know he'll be an amazing big brother...if we can give him the chance.

I'm so angry that my body won't work properly.  I'm taking Metformin too.  I was hoping that was all it would take since that's all it took with Miles...but apparently not.  So we're starting the oral meds.  I always said I wouldn't do any "treatments", but I want another baby so bad I can't stand it.  I'm pretty sure I'm back in the "I'll do anything" boat.

So keep us in your prayers...

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

I'm one proud mama.

So we all know my Dad is very sick.  He looks a little scary now...or I thought he would to Miles.  He has lost a large amount of weight.  So he's very, very thin and he's lost all of his hair.  His beard is more of a goatee these days and is thinning out considerably.  He has a urostomy bag, a colostomy bag, a g-tube (to drain the fluid off his abdomen and potentially to feed him by), and another spot that is capped off...all on his belly.  His belly looks like a science experiment basically.

When we were over Sunday, Mom was cleaning Dad's belly because the tape they use was irritating his skin and creating sores.  So he had his shirt up, was in pain and was being cleaned up by Mom.  Miles came in the room and wasn't the slightest bit scared of his Poppy.  He asked if he could help my Mom.  So she let him carry Poppy his medicine in a little cup.  When Dad drank all of his water, Miles said "I'll go get Poppy some more water in case he's thristy."   So he went to the kitchen and got the water and carried it back in and sat it on his bedside table.

There was also another time when I was laying in bed with Dad rubbing his arms and shoulders because he was hurting.  Miles climbed right up on the bed with us and sat with me eating something while I rubbed Dad.  It was something I wish I could've had a picture of.  My sweet boy makes all this sadness so much easier to tolerate because he's not scared and he loves his Poppy no matter what.

Seriously, I could cry.  He's so compassionate and caring.  I am so amazed that he's not scared of Poppy.  All those bags and mess on his belly don't matter to Miles because that's his Poppy and he loves him not matter what.  It's a reminder that I've done something right.  I don't know what or when I did it, but I've done good.  :-)  I don't know how I got so lucky to have such a sweet kid, but I thank my lucky stars every day for him.    

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

The state of the union.

Well, things around these here parts are good most days.  I've started going out to Mom and Dad's to help Mom out now that Dad is home.  He's in a lot of pain most days and enjoys being rubbed on a lot, which is fine, but it's hard for one person.  So I'm going on Tuesdays, Nikki is going on Thursday and someone (extended family or one of us kids) goes out on the weekend.  So Mom's getting relief every other day or so.  It's working out pretty well so far.  We cook dinner for them, although Dad's not in the mood to eat much right now, and I did a little laundry yesterday and massaged/rubbed/scratched Dad until my arms were ready to fall off.  :-)  I'll do it again next time he asks and every time after that...because he's my Daddy and he's done the same for me for the last 30 years.

I emptied the colostomy bag last night.  Sounds like no big deal right?  It's a bag of poo.  It's not as bad as it could be for sure!  I did great.  :-)  I was so proud and felt so accomplished!  Dad warned me over and over how disgusting it is...but really it's not that bad.  I mean, I have a 3 year old, poop is a way of life...and having it on my hands is far worse than emptying a container of it with gloves on and Clorox wipes at the ready.  It's ain't no thang!  Plus, now I can do that and Mom can take a real, honest, full-time break while I'm there and not have to run in and do it.  Hooray!

Miles has started to feel the changes around him.  He was acting up at school a couple of weeks ago and we've refocused and made him our focus when we're home and made sure he knows what's going on and feels loved and knows we're super proud of him when he does well at school.  He's done better, but it's still hard on him.  And Lord is it ever hard on Mama's psyche!  Last night, while I was at Mom and Dad's, Brad was putting him to bed.  He cried and cried and cried for me...even begged Brad to lay in bed with him while he fell asleep.  :-(  (Mama's heart broke when she heard that.)  So I promised him this morning that even when I'm gone in the evenings I'll iChat with him before he goes to bed and give him air kisses.  He seemed okay with that...so we'll see how he handles that.

Aside from that we're all good.  Almost gave Dudley away Sunday...but Brad convinced me to keep that little varmint.  Oh and I've lost 6 pounds in a month.  :-)  Yay me!   

Thursday, October 20, 2011

The last 2 months have been insane.

No excuse for laziness, but it's the truth ladies and gentlemen. 

Well, on 9.6.11 we found out we were pregnant.  It was a complete surprise...total accident, not any less wanted...but certainly a surprise.  After 3 blood draws and 6 ultrasounds we miscarried last week on 10.12.11.  Very, very sad day.  We'll try again next year, but we're going to play that by ear.

On top of that sadness, we found out last month that my Dad's cancer is back and it's not looking good.  Dad is currently in the hospital (has been for 4 weeks) and is finally able to eat semi-solid food again.  After many scans and a surgery, he's finally starting to hurt a little less and be less nauseated.  Mom says it's looking like they'll go home Saturday, which happens to be her birthday.  So happy birthday to Mom! 

Oh!  And in addition to all that sadness, my little brother Nicholas got married.  :-)  It was a lovely affair and I can't wait to see some pics from it.  I only have a couple of me, Zac and Nic and one of Evaline.  We were able to Skype Dad in for the ceremony.  So he got to see Nic before the wedding and everyone after the wedding.  We even got a few pics with him in them on my phone.  :-)

Okay, more later...but that's all for now!

Thursday, August 11, 2011

These days...

So what's happening right now with the famdamily?

Miles is learning new stuff every day.  His imaginative play is getting so interesting to just watch.  I love to sit back and watch him imagine different scenarios and act them out.  It's really kind of exploded lately.  He's doing lots of interesting, fun trips with his grandparents lately too.  He spent the morning at the Zoo with Granny one day and went to a minor league baseball game with his Grandma, Papa & Shera.  His good looks and outgoing personality got him a baseball from the pitcher before the game.  :-)

Brad has taken up mountain biking.  He did a race on his dad and sister's encouragement.  He had such a great time and it was fantastic exercise for him.  So he bought a bike and he's started riding and is signing up for a major race next month.  The downside?  It's a 24 hour race so he'll be riding for 24 hours AND Miles and I will be camping at the site for 24 hours.  Yep..that's not ideal for me at least.

Me?  Same old thing.  I'm shooting pictures like these.  I've decided to get back to basics with the photography and quit worrying about getting paid and do it more because it's what makes me happy and learn my craft more and more.  One day I'll be great...for now I'm just happy. 

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Morning convo

Brad: Be good to Mommy today while I'm at work.

Miles: Ok. I will. I won't slap her or bite her.

Haha!! I guess at least I've got that going for me!


- Emi on the go from my iPhone

Monday, August 1, 2011

Milesy funnies...

These are things that Miles has said that I have posted on Facebook, but not here, but that I want to remember forever.  Enjoy!


Walking into Kroger as it was raining, I was carrying Miles to be quick. He reached up and tried to cover my head so I wouldn't get rained on. Such a gentleman. I guess he might love me.

Miles goes into Grandma and Papa's room and comes out with a basket FULL of eggs that have yet to be hidden and says to everyone "Happy Easter!"

Miles called me "Baby Mama" this evening. :-) I've been called worse...

Me: Miles, will you help me put the clothes in the washer?

Miles: Of course!

Miles got some Nerds earlier from Grandma. Running up to me to ask for more: "Mommy! Can I please have some more turds?"

As I'm waiting on this annoyingly slow truck to get the heck outta my way, from the backseat comes "Go on ladies! Gosh!" Uh oh!

Brad: Miles move over. Daddy has a big butt.

Miles: Mommy has a big butt too! Mommy, you have a big butt.
Nice...

Kermit and Miss Piggy are on TV. When asked who it is, Miles responds "It's the Muffins! I love the Muffins!"

In a restaurant and Miles hears Rascall Flatts' "Life is a Highway". He says "What's that noise? That's Cars! It's Mack Mommy!"

Miles singing Bieber goes like this "Rockbye baby, Rockbye Baby, Rockybye Baby, oh...rockbye baby..."

Miles just asked for another bite of his "Charlie Brown". Can you guess what that is?

Miles just requested "the 'round town song" (aka Cee Lo Green's "Forget You"...the clean version). The kid's got taste!

After giving Miles his yogurt, I say "Miles, what do you say?". His response "I thank thee." Uhm where does he get this stuff? We watch Pixar, not Shakespeare.

Miles: I want my Nukkie mama.

Me: You don't need it. Big boys don't need Nuks.

Miles: I don't wanna big a big boy!

Uhm at school today the kids watched a movie and ate Froot Loops. On our way out the door Miles was holding his belly (aka pocket on his shirt) so I asked if he was ok. He said "Keeping my Froot Loops safe.". Apparently he was filling his pocket and they thought he was eating them...so he had quite a stash by the time I got there!

Just asked Miles to show me his lizard (that he got at school today) and he pulled his pull-up off. Hmmmm...

Miles to me this weekend upon seeing the plastic Dracula on Mom and Dad's front porch: "Mommo, that's Dracula. He kills people." Uhm. You're two...how do you know that?

Thursday, July 28, 2011

I'm baaaaaaack!

I know I've been MIA. I'm back. I'll probably be doing a bunch of catch up posts in the new week or so. But for now here's a pic of Miles with our first big "mato".



- Emi on the go from my iPhone

Friday, May 13, 2011

Wow! Long time no post!

Sorry!  I post on FB, but not on here.  I really need to find a way to link the two.  That would be perfection.  My plan is to go back through FB and get all the funny things Miles has said to put them in one spot to go back and read later...and/or embarrass him with.  :-)  I'll get to that soon, I promise! 

One thing before I scurry off.  I turn 30 on Monday.  Tomorrow (Saturday) I'm going sky-diving.  :-)  I.  Can't.  Wait!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Few things Miles has said/done that I don't want to ever forget.

Since I don't keep up with his baby book (smack my hand!) I try to keep all of the good stuff on here so I don't forget.

1.)  Miles calls hashbrowns "Charlie Browns".  He was asking for this Charlie Brown and Brad didn't know what he was talking about and threw away his hashbrown because it got grease on the chair.  Miles burst into tears crying "I want my Charlie Brown!!"  Then we realized what it was he was asking for.  He still calls them that to this day.

2.)  I recently introduced Miles to Jim Henson's Muppets.  He started with Muppets Take Manhattan.  They were on TV today and I said "Miles who's on TV?"  He said "It's the muffins!  I love the muffins!"  Soooooo cute.  He really does enjoy watching "the Muffins".

3.)  I went for a run/walk the other day.  I got home and Miles had been waiting for me at the door, which was already a lovely thing to come home to.  I sat down in the chair to cool off and he climbed in the chair with me and just randomly, out of no where, leaned over and kissed my shoulder.  :-)  I was the happiest Mama in the world.  He wasn't prompted to do it.  No one suggested it or had to ask him.  He just wanted to give me a kiss and did it.  I loved it.

Motherhood is wonderful, but it sure is exhausting.  Today has been one of those days where I really did just need a few hours to myself to just be quiet and be still and do what I wanted.  That didn't happen, but I made it through, sanity in tact, because of those little moments.  They make all the difficult times worth it.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

I know...I've been lazy.

And I really do feel guilty about not blogging about Miles more since I haven't done jack to his baby book.  But oh well...what can you do?

So what's Mr. Miles been up to?  Well, a few things.  First, he's potty-trained.  He still sleeps in a pull-up, but he's potty-trained throughout the day.  I wasn't pushing it and he wasn't interested in it really.  Then at school Ms. Rachel said he had been peeing on the potty some and she thought maybe big boy underwear like the other kids would entice him to potty-train.  So the following Monday I put big boy undies on him and started to put a pull-up over them so he'd just feel the yucky feeling, but not make a mess.  He refused to let me put on the pull-up and he had an accident a day for the first week and then just got better and better.  He had his first accident in two weeks yesterday and it was a little bit of poo.  That's the other thing...this kid decides he wants to potty-train while he's suffering the worst bout of constipation in his history.  Yep, that's my kid.  :-)

Let's see what else?  Oh he gave up the Nuk Monday night.  Brad suggested he give it to the "Nukkie Fairy" who would then take it to Santa and then Santa would give the Nuks to the other boys and girls who don't have them and bring Miles a present for being such a big boy.  Well, despite us having suggested that in the past, this time it worked.  He did it.  He set out his Nuks in a ziploc baggie (his idea) and left them for the fairy.  She took them and Santa brought him an Aqua Doodle.  :-)  Here's a link to a video from the morning after.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4iYzRIhKMxw  And he did great with it.  He cried a BUNCH Monday night and asked for it immediately when he woke up Tuesday morning.  Last night he cried for 10 straight minutes but fell asleep and slept soundly.  So he's doing fine with it.

Okay, so a couple of funny things he's done recently.  We were having dinner with the Clarks and Miles was done and so was Robert.  Miles asked me to get him down and I told him to ask Papa since Papa was also finished eating.  He looked right at Robert and said "Will you get me down, old man?"  :-)  I haven't laughed so hard in a long time.  It was hysterical.

He was watching the Snow Dogs special features in the car while we were waiting for Shera to finish her race Saturday and I'm not sure what was happening on the video, but he said "Mommy, will you turn this off?  It's freaking me out."  I guess he does soak up more of what I say than I thought.

Also, he was being a stinker before bed the other night and I couldn't get him to sit in timeout.  I never spank him...but I felt compelled to say "Miles?  Do you want a spanking?"  He looked me square in the face and calmly as humanly possible said "Spank me, Mommy."  I tried to hold back the laughter and just internalize it, but Brad was sitting in the living room with his shirt over his face and Miles could clearly tell that he'd said something funny...so I had to laugh too. 

He's such a funny kid.  He's smart.  He's quick witted.  And lately he's been just a snuggle bunny and always saying "Mommy and Daddy are my best buddies."  I can't get enough.  I really can't. 

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

I've gone over to the YouTube.

Videos are so much more enjoyable of an always in motion 2 year old.  Don't ya think?  Well I do and really that's all that matters on my blog.  :-)

So the latest and greatest is Miles performing "I'm a little teapot."  :-)  Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jB9BMy7SnaA

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Nothin' new 'round here.

Nothing new going on here.  Miles appears to be having a growth spurt because he's eating like a piglet and he's been sleeping like crazy...neither of which I'm sorry to see happening!  I love growth spurts!  :-)

He's taken to saying "That's what I'm talkin' 'bout!" when you finally understand what he's talking about.  The other day I gave him his yogurt and he didn't thank me so I said "Miles, what do you say?"  He promptly responded without hesitation "I thank thee."  :-)  I thought I misunderstood him so I asked him again and he sure enough said it over again twice.  Such a funny little guy!

Papa (Robert) has wrapped him in his manky and swung him around in the living room the other day.  We almost died when Miles yelled "I'm body hangin'!"  haha.  So now everytime Papa comes over Miles asks him to do "body hangin".  Robert is clever though and thought to save his back some hardship he'd pull him around on his manky, which is now called "body pullin" and team up with Brad to do another favorite "body swingin".

He spent this past Monday (MLK Day) with Granny and Poppy (Johnda & Cecil).  He drove his new Ford F-150 around their yard and played games and ate candy (yes, Granny he told me).  :-)  They all had a blast!  Miles was so excited to spend the day with them and they were thrilled to get to spend the day with him.

Well, that's all I can think of for now.  We just booked our vacation.  Destin, Florida in June.  I'm soooooo excited to take Miles back to the beach.  He is going to LOVE it!  Can't wait!  I say that as we're snowed in.  Boooooo! I'm so done with winter...can we have some spring please?

Monday, January 10, 2011

A few days have passed...

So here's a few pictures.









- Emi on the go from my iPhone

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Day 6

Watchin' Buzz and Woody on his horsey.



Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Day 5

Me and my big ole Doodle.



- Emi on the go from my iPhone

Day 5

Me and my big ole Doodle.



- Emi on the go from my iPhone

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Day 4

"Apples!!!"



- Emi on the go from my iPhone

Monday, January 3, 2011

Day 3 (round 2)

Melts my heart.



- Emi on the go from my iPhone

Day 3

How's this for cutting it close?



- Emi on the go from my iPhone

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Day 2...

Future golfer. Tiger Woods without all the skanks (I hope!)!!


- Emi on the go from my iPhone