...I would be organized and NEVER forget things.

Yeah, it's true...disorganization has reared its ugly head again. So all day today I was totally stressing out about how messy my desk was, but I just didn't have time to get it organized. Everytime I'd get done with something someone else would be right behind me with something else to do. No biggie, makes the day fly by...however I can't stand disorganization.

Yes, by looking at my house sometimes you'd think otherwise, but I'm telling you I need organization. Case in point, I missed a midterm exam for my class yesterday. Yes, it's true...she gave us "the week off" so I took that literally without looking at our syllabus to see that our midterm exam was due YESTERDAY! So I emailed her and being the saint that she is she let me take it a day late. So I got home from work today, sat down on the couch with my computer in my lap and I slaved my little fingers to the bone taking a 50 question exam.

I had a break, FOR CLASS, because yes, my other class was tonight. So I worked on my exam from 6-8. Class from 8-9. I had another quiz due in my other class tonight so I had to take that 10 question quiz too. So I did it and got it done with a 100%. Then I just turned in my midterm exam for a 94%!!! Woohoo!! That means I got an A on it! Thank God my professor is a saint and she isn't deducting any points for me being a dingbat and turning it in late!

I NEED ORGANIZATION BACK IN MY LIFE ASAP!!!!! BAD THINGS COULD HAPPEN IF I DON'T FIND IT SOON...LIKE BAD GRADES, MISSED DEADLINES AT WORK, INCREASED STRESS, STRESS EATING, ETC.

...wars would only be in video games.

My brother is coming home on Sunday for two weeks. He is a private in the Army, stationed in Hawaii, so I don't get to see him very often. For the last 6 weeks he's been in the Mojave Desert for desert training before he deploys later this year. In talking to him, I can hear that he's ready to get his deployment over and done...and he's never even deployed before.

As an older sister and someone who has always protected him...I'm terrified of the day he deploys. He's smart, in great shape, and hopefully will listen to orders...but I'm still scared of what *could* happen. I know the odds are in his favor, but it's still scary for me to think about. He's 24, he just joined in January...so this is his first deployment... and hopefully his last.

So in my world...all wars would be fought PS2/XBOX style...on TV and with a video game controller. Blood would be digital red, machine gun fire would be dolby surround sound, and the wins could be saved on a memory stick rather than in history books. Or better yet, all battles could be settled paper, rock, scissor style. That's how we settle arguments in my house...it seems to work very well. :-)

...Neverland would be real.

We'd never have to grow up. Growing up means responsibility, pressure, stress and bills. In my world I'd still be 18...I'd still be living in the summer after my senior year of high school. Things were simple, fun, and warm. I was cute, I weighed 50 lbs. less (hard to believe I know), and all I had to worry about was having a good time. I worked at a grocery store for $5.15/hr. and that was plenty for me. I rode around all summer with the windows down and the music up, my hair blowing all over, caring about nothing except what to do that night and who to do it with.

Oh those were the days...my how things have changed...